There’s a certain tortured logic to watching games as a fantasy football manager. It’s unnatural, at least, for those of us who grew up rooting for our favorite teams to win by beating their opponents.

You may think that one team beating the other is the point of a game. Not anymore. Fantasy football has little to do with on-field wins and losses. Frequently, in fact, you find yourself rooting for and against a team at the same time.

On Sunday, for instance, I was watching the Indianapolis-Tampa Bay game and pulling for my QB, Peyton Manning, to throw TD passes early and often.

However, I did not want Manning to give any looks to his teammate Anthony Gonzalez, my fantasy opponent’s WR, and I would’ve preferred if Indy kicker Adam Vinatieri (also on my opponent’s team) had missed the PATs that followed Manning’s touchdowns. Or maybe the Colts should’ve gone for two after every score.

Sunday night I watched the Green Bay-Chicago game with my wife’s uncle, a Chicago native and die-hard Bears fan. (They’re all die-hard Bears fans there—like Buckeye fans, but with thick accents and better pizza.)

Of course he was rooting for Chicago to kill their cross-border rivals, and I cheered along. But I also wanted Green Bay WR Donald Driver to score a TD or two, and I wanted the Green Bay defense to recover a couple turnovers and hold Chicago to six points or fewer.

Other than that, I wanted Chicago to win.